Conclusions of the Week (1/30/10)
Saturday, January 30th, 2010- I so do not want to work in a traditional corporate environment! Right now, it doesn’t matter much because of my age, but in the long run, I am sure I’d be quite miserable. Even better, I think I’d like to work from home-ish, in the sense that I set my own hours or work in a place that is very flexible. Academia, you say? Maybe, but academia has its own set of problems and politics that I’m not sure I want to navigate. Actually, this realization more or less lines right up with what I ultimately want to do with my life and be known for (I won’t say it here just yet, because that goal is years and years off — 10, maybe 15 years in the future).
- If I am going to start writing, I have to do it now! I want to call myself a ‘writer’ so much, not for fame or anything like that, but because if I don’t write, my head is going to explode. I’d make music if I could, or paint, or sculpt, or dance, but those are not my mediums. Words and stories pound against the inside of my skull and they must get out! I’ve mentioned before that there is a block as solid as a brick wall preventing me from writing . . It’s gotten less solid over the past few weeks, but that’s taking too long. I’ve been telling myself that I just don’t know quite enough about the craft, but that’s BS. I can learn the technical stuff as I go along and hone my voice. In fact, that’s how I learn just about everything else, why should this be any different? No more waiting! To that end, tomorrow I am going to write a 1 page work of . . . something. I don’t know what, but it’s going to come out.
- Weigh in: 196.2 Woot!
- I love this song:
NaBloPoMo Week Three!
Sunday, November 15th, 2009Wow! We’re already halfway through the month. Posting regularly is both harder and easier than I thought. Easier because of the themes I chose make it possible to not write too deep posts, but harder because just remembering to make a post every day is strangely elusive.
This week’s theme is Quotable Quotes / Random Facts! I thought I’d feed our brains a bit with some thought provoking saying or something that we never new before. First up:
You get ideas from daydreaming. You get ideas from being bored. You get ideas all the time. The only difference between writers and other people is we notice when we’re doing it. ~Neil Gaiman
I have always been a creator of stories. I’ve never thought of myself as a writer, however, because for most of my life, I have been TERRIFIED of writing. Scared to death. Even when I knew that no one would ever see it, I just couldn’t. I was afraid to open up to the universe. As a result, the stories I created (and they’ve been coming since I remember remembering) remained daydreams. Remained locked between the synapses in my brain. And I could and still do spend hours upon hours daydreaming, creating. Thinking about it makes me a little sad, because it’s just another reminder of the fear that has ruled me for a long time, and has stopped me from pursuing what I love, and is responsible for so many missed opportunities. I’m angry at myself and the environment that contributed to the fear. I am determined to not let it win. I am a creator of stories, but I want to be a storyteller.
So while I’m not completely over the fear, I’m getting there. In fact, this blog is an exercise in overcoming the fear. Just two years ago, I could not have imagined writing even on a blog, for anyone to see. The thought made me want to puke. Now I have committed to writing something every day for a month; I am putting my struggle with weight on the internet for the world to see forever. I’ve come a long way, and for that I am happy.